Majority

One of the reasons why I chose to do an exchange was due to majority. Exchange was glorified when I first entered university, with seniors telling me that exchange is going to be the peak of your university life, it's going change the way you see the world, et cetera et cetera. It is sad that I'm almost at the end of my exchange and I felt nothing close to what they had mentioned.

I look at myself over the past few weeks after Huin left and never a moment did I truly felt happy. The worries were never ending - worrying if I can do well enough to pass, worrying if I submitted my insurance/housing/transport/phone bills on time, worrying if I have to spend an extra franc on something that was not on my budget. School has been insane. Maybe it is the amount of work that has snowballed over the past few months but I look at my friends doing exchange.. How can they afford to have that much fun without having to worry for their grades?

I don't think I have ever cried this much in a span of a month and I really hate myself for it. I know that I have to have more control of my own emotional yet I cannot help but to wallow in self pity.


Zurich, or rather, Switzerland is such a beautiful country and it's a pity that this memories have tainted my love for it. If only I could go back in time.. maybe I would not have submitted my application for GEM explorer.